Do you remember that first day in rehab?

I've never had the need for rehab, but my husband has been in 3 times and come out each time hopeful until he relapsed and was worse than when he began. He is a chronic alchoholic now, gets drunk at least once a day, sometimes twice. I think some things are better left alone. When you try to do good, sometimes it has a negative affect, and the worst part is he tries to blame me. I supported him and our children for years, and now his brain has turned to mush. :-(