Can at least sombody sympathise me and answer my question?

You're trying to hard buddy. Plain and simple. Maybe there is something underlying that I don't understand from your little text that you wrote. But it sounds like you're obsessed with something simply because you want it and can't have it. You want a girlfriend but you don't talk to girls. Try this...make your focus to not have a girlfriend. I know this sounds weird. You seem relationship dependent even though you've never been in one. You're becoming desperate and need to focus on school and personal activities. Just focus on you, your career goals, school, and having fun. If you happen to run into a girl you like, tell yourself you're not interested in her. Just start here and it'll work out. Even if you don't date in college it's no big deal. College is over rated anyhow.